:: wildflower ::the life and times of a wildflower girl
|:: welcome to wildflower :: bloghome | contact ::|
:: Monday, April 29 ::
so it got worse. it actually snowed for most of today. but one of the play rehearsals was fun. it was a sixth grade rendition of 'guys and dolls' and how can you not love that? i dont understand eleven year olds. i really dont. theyre wonderful and high-energy and fabulous of course. but i dont understand them.
a photo a day has a new feature in the news section of the site. a changing 'collective vision' of photographs. i really love it.
im up way too early. and its another cold rainy day. i have to work today and normally, that excites me. but lately. my job is getting on my nerves. not what i do. but where i am. who i work for. today i have a couple of play rehearsals for the high school and the elementary school. and a multiples playgroup this morning. what fun. maybe something exciting will happen in the middle of the day. spice my life up a little. just maybe.:: Sunday, April 28 ::
im getting a handle on things. this time. i am. i swear. im figuring things out. like never before.:: Saturday, April 27 ::
i saw this on melissa's blog and couldnt resist taking it myself.:: Friday, April 26 ::
"i am tired of hiding, tired of misspent and knotted energies, tired of the hypocrisy, and tired of acting as though i have something to hide." -from the book 'an unquiet mind: a memoir of moods and madness' by kay redfield jamison
ive had a song stuck in my head since this morning. 'underneath your clothes' by shakira. ugh. i know. why? because it was on vh1 while i was working out and i had my headphones on, flipping between the radio channels and vh1. its not the worst song in the world, but still. i really dont like having songs playing around and around in my head like this.
i didnt go to portsmouth with daniel today. the whole 6am thing just wasnt working for me this morning. so i stayed home. went to the gym, and while on the treadmill 'me and bobby mcgee' by janis joplin started playing through my headphones. made my morning. came home and received a package from my friend bill, which contained the tape from my surprise birthday party in october. i sat downstairs and watched it for almost an hour. it felt good to relive that for a little while. i laughed a lot and cried a little. and it reminded me. surprised me really. how sometimes. so many things (too many things) can change in only six months.:: Thursday, April 25 ::
tomorrow: daniel and i are heading out early. to portsmouth for the day. one of my very favorite places to be. its just for a few hours, and we have a full schedule since its for business that we are going. which hardly seems worth the three hour drive each way. if it were almost anywhere else, it wouldnt be worth the drive. but its portsmouth. and ill still be excited to be there. and maybe we can make time to swing into some of my favorite shops. and i can take more photos. even though we were just there last week.
the boston globe has conducted a survey.
okay i love this show. so i couldnt resist taking the test. and genevieve is my favorite. so yay.
the colors are done. tell me what you think. its very exciting. i know.
im working on the colors. bear with me. :)
know what woke me up this morning? birds. birds! last night i opened one of the windows in the room because i was hot. and this morning. i swear. the bird must have been sitting on the window ledge, it was so loud. the bird doing its bird-thing woke me up. lovely thing. singing as if to say 'hello. good morning. im back from my trip south. and its spring. and look, the sun is shining. so wake up!'
i miss the ocean. i got back from my trip to maine last wednesday. its been eight days. and i miss it. thats wierd i suppose. i didnt grow up in some island paradise like daniel did, or on a coast somewhere. up to the age of 20, i think i only saw the ocean three or four times. but in all the places ive lived, ive never lived more than three hours away from the ocean, whether it was the atlantic or pacific, and more often than not i was much closer. but now that ive seen it. now that i see it every summer. im hooked. whether its the rocky shoreline in maine or the sandy beaches of marthas vineyard.:: Wednesday, April 24 ::
im finding myself sitting here. wondering what brought me to this site. wishing a lot of things. but right this second, wishing i had more to say. wishing i had some meaningless survey or friday five to fill out. to take up the space. to distract my mind. wishing i could somehow put into words the jumbles and puzzles inside my head.
its not very often. even in this area. that you get to see the mountains putting on their blanket of green. and at the same time, underneath, you can still see the nakedness of the snow beneath. today on the thirty mile drive to my mothers, i noticed it. tonight on my drive home, it was gone. the snow has melted. the sun was beating all day on the highest mountain in my state. it was such a beautiful contrast. the bright yellow and green. against the stark clean white.
im not a bad person. im not saying it to tell you. im saying it because i have to keep telling myself that. last night i expressed a concern. i then laid in bed for a good ten or fifteen minutes listening to his reply. listening to how bad of a person i really am. followed by 'i dont think youre a bad person' which made no sense at all at that point. i didnt have anything to say in reply. i just laid there and at some point, fell asleep. then i was awoken this morning with a kiss on the cheek and the smell of honey nut cheerios on his breath. 'im leaving, have a good day' i turned over and waited for him to leave. he dawdled. i dont know what he was doing. but he dawdled. when i heard the door close and heard him get into his car, i got up.:: Tuesday, April 23 ::
so im here now too. so we'll see what happens. thanks to andrea and laura for the inspiration. ive been looking for a place for random, not-necessarily-so-meaningful entries. i also star here.